Looking Forward Through Looking Back
Sarnai has many fierce supporters and loyal admirers for her ministry as well as her huge giving heart in her relationships. A close friend broke her ankle and—despite a fully-laden plate with taking care of her family and a full-time ministry—Sarnai offered, without hesitation, to stay with her to help take care of her. Reckoned as a superwoman by many, Sarnai comes across as matter-of-factly humble.
She said, “If someone had told me to start an orphanage, I would have said, ‘I’ll think and pray about it.’ But God brought the need right in front of my eyes, and that’s how it happened. Some things you simply cannot see and then ignore. I barely have the necessary qualifications, but he called me.”
Life as a missionary brought pain and trials and little of the romance we may imagine. Sarnai hesitated to share the moments of honest wrestling with God, of grieving and getting mad, of asking “Why did you allow these horrific things to happen to me when you asked me to serve you?” She would loathe for that part of her story to discourage anyone from following God into a no-holds-barred devotion and service which clearly rewards with a tested and fulfilled joy. She said, “What a privilege to see the inner workings of God.” She has an enviable, intimate, and easy relationship with Jesus that grew through years of faithful and willing submission.
The past year and a half of COVID-19 put a stop to all travels to Mongolia. Typical of her personality—“If I’m going to be stuck, let’s use my time effectively”—Sarnai enrolled in a counselling course at the Singapore Bible College to better equip her to understand the younger children, to minister to the older teenagers involved in prostitution, and to counsel potential foster parents. She yearns to “help people become the hands and feet of Christ.” Yet, she has come to realize that perhaps God brought her to that course not for the children, but for her. Sarnai recognizes that she needed the time and space to uncover her own deep-rooted issues and to reflect, and to heal from painful experiences recent and past—some of which go way back to her childhood. The God who poured out his love on Sarnai during those nights on the balcony in her childhood still keeps his eye on her.
Sarnai concludes, “I believe we are all called to obedience and faithfulness. For Christ, it was to the Cross. Each person has a different calling. When God calls you, he will also equip you to withstand the storms. And you can do things you thought you’d never do.”
About The Author
Born and raised in Singapore, June thrives on exposure to new cultures and has lived in eleven cities since she was nineteen. June is a theater and visual artist who loves the wonder of stories and explores them in various art forms. June is also working towards her ThM at Dallas Theological Seminary.